NYE PICS

I have waited so long for these pics from new years,,,,perhaps i shall share them with you all

JUSTICE

So I havnt benn blogging latley, dont know why. I try and tell myself that its because I have nothing to talk about but I never did in the first place but I somehow have tons of blogs haha. Well I have already started typing so this is obv going to add to my collection. Im watching the grudge right now (just something to add to my nothingness)
So anyways , last night i was soooo bored! So bored infact that i sat and recorded myself singing all the songs i wrote while playing guitar at the same time and then recorded blessed be your name 3 times!!!! Its kinda cool to listen to them after tho haha.
Tonight I volenteered at a shelter with B (ROOMATE) and man it was sooo....I dunno how to describe with out it coming out wrong. Lets just say that I am 10000 times more excited to serve God through the street ministry. I was telling my dentist (more close family friend) about how i want to do street ministry and he was like "why the hell would you help thos ppl!?" Then he went on about how he hates the fact that he pays taxes to them or something like that. Anyways that right there wanted me to do it even more.

LET JUSTICE REIGN!!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!

Nicole Brindle

-NICOLE BRINDLE-

You're a true friend,
that I want you to know,
Our love for each other
has helped us to grow.
We've been through some tough times,
but we've made it through,
The only one I ever trusted was you.

You helped me through anger,
you've chased away fears.
You held me through sadness,
and kissed away tears.
You stayed by my side
when the world turned away.
You helped me see joy
when the skies were all gray.

You were the rainbow
at the end of the storm.
You help me be different
when I shouldn't conform.
You held my hand
when you knew we would fall.
Every heartache, you saw me through it all.

I'm not sure I'm always the best friend to you,
I know I'm not perfect,
but this much is true.
When life gets you down,
And there's nowhere to turn,
I'll help you through
and I'll share your concern.

I'll try my best to return every favor,
When you're sure that you'll drown,
then I'll be your lifesaver;
Even if we both go down.
Whether we sink or swim
doesn't matter at all,
Just know that I'll be there
whenever you call.

I'll pull you out
when life pulls you under.
I'll be the sun
when there's lightning and thunder.
And when it's all over,
And we've fought every war,
There's one thing I promise,
Of this I am sure,

When the time comes
that we're put to our rest.
Be sure that you know that,
My friend, you're the best.
And if there is Heaven,
then I know you'll be there,
That if you die first
then you'll hear every prayer.

And soon I'll join you,
but just know until then.
That I'll miss you each day
'til I see you again.
At the end of the tunnel,
you'll be my guiding light,
You'll lead me to heaven,
away from the night.

We'll be there together,
and we'll never grow old.
And we'll walk hand in hand
On the streets paved of gold.
~I love you Nicole~
~Best Roommates eva~

So I heard it was good to carry other peoples burdans....if you give them to Jesus. Im doing good at taking other peoples burdans but Im having a hard time giving them up because it feels like if I give it up than nothing will happen...I guess to Jesus it looks like I dont trust he can do what he can. I didnt just relize that till now...but what does giving it to him look like?
I went with my friend to her altrasound to see her soon to be baby and it was AMAZING seeing life forming in her on a screen. It blew me away and made it feel so much more real. Seeing that life felt like seeing Jesus. Hard to explain.
Anyways she is 18 and is scared shitless of having it. She feels she has no way of having it. Like its not possable. I keep giving her all these options and support but everytime an option comes up she shuts it down.
She wants to kill it and I feel like her minds already made up. Im so scared and its driving me insane. It almost feels like its my problem.
Anyways Pray and get others to pray to. THIS IS A BIG ONE FOLKS

MUCH GRACE TO YOU

When everything you touch...

So its been a week since my fight with my dad. Wow that went by fast. Anyways I dont want to talk about that. Im not to sure what I want to talk about actually.
Im really excited to start over here. I have been laying low from alot of people tho. Only till I figure myself out. It may seem kind of harsh but Im really scared of being around people I love. Like this whole week I practically been inside my home or the holly house because I am scared of screwing up r hurting someone close to me. I have completly drove my own family insane and they have totally let me down. Goes both ways.
Have you ever heard that fairy tail of that guys and everything he touches goes to stone or gold or something??? Well thats how I feel. I feel like everyone and everything I come close to I hurt. And it goes the other way to. So far everyone I love and trust has totally let me down and in someway or another hurt me or scared me. There are only those couple people left that havnt fallen into these catagories. I am so scared that I will lose them too. Then I will have no one. Im not quite sure what I am doing other than trying to get through what life is throwing at me. I know that I have made stupid choices but everyone does...so why are people giving up on me so fast???
For those of you who still have faith in me and are still by myside, Thank you. I know who you are and everything you do for me. I thank God everyday for you guys

Send Hope

Tash

Where Im loved back

So here I am sitting here in my mom and step dads home about to tell you whats up. Yep you heard me! Im BACK!
My dad kicked me out with no where to go so I had to call Ian (my ex) I had to call his dad. So he came and got me and i spent the night there and then he got me a plane ticket to come home...took me two days to get home. My connecting flight to victoria was cancelled so I had to sleep over at the airport then wen I woke up today there they said that they were still cancelled and so I got on a bus with all of my stuff and I took the ferry home. Im too hurt and tired to get into details of what happend but in time I will type it all out.
Im so happy to be here with the people I love and that I know who will love me back.
But now Im back at square one. I have to find a place to live, get a job, get on assistant living and graduate.
Lord help me.
I need big time help, there is no way in heaven that I can do this on my own again. To be honest im so scared and done.
I need a boost.
Im so sorry for the fact that Im always asking for help and prayers but this journey isnt over and I need help.

Send Peace
Tash ><>

"WHERE DO YOU WANT ME?"

Have you ever wondered if you're in the right place? Like are you right where God has planned for you to be? Or if things are suppose to happen the way they do even if its really bad?
Well I have a question for the big guy..."WHERE DO YOU WANT ME????"
I really felt like God wanted me to move in with my real dad in Calgary and finish school. Well My real dad and I are not getting along at all. And its not the small petty fights....its the big ones where Im scared to come home. Why?
Did God want me to move out here where I have no family and no friends and 1000000 miles away from everything I know? Plus Im living with a guy I dont know at all.
I want to come home only because I want my mom to cuddle me and tell me that everything will be ok. But I also want to stay here because I am in an amazing school and in cosmotology! I have two jobs and I like them both. I have made one friend so far and she has really made me feel better about being here.
Im not going to get into detail about me and my pops but I will say that Im scared shitless.
I have been in hard core tears all day and I went into my work today to call my mom (because my dad cancelled my cell) and I ended up being there for 4 and a half hours. I have an amazing manager. We talked for so long then he gave me his number if I need anything! Anyways I got home tonight and dad and his gf acted like nothing happend at all, even tho my face is swollen up like a beach ball and I can barley open my eyes.
Anyways...Im so lost. I dont know what God wants. I keep asking him but I havnt gotten a clear answer yet.
It feels like every decision I have to make I choose the wrong one. But I bet you anything that if I chose the oposite choice than I mad it would turn out bad as well. Is it suppose to be like this?
I need answers or I might ... I dunno................please pray.

Send some love. I need it