Todays Mess

Ok, I need to get this out of me so here I go....(this may seem extremly random). Right now this is my life: I am a couch surfer...i moved out in may and have been to four different places to live. I wont lie, I got mixed up with drugs sex and beer and now I feel trapped. People keep trying to get involved and try to "fix" my life, without telling me or anyone. So I have no trust in anyone except those special people god gave me.
Anyways heres todays mess. Ok...I have never met my real dad or ever talked to him...he has never been brought up and when he has, its been by my mom and all that she has ever told me was that hes a heavy drunk and beat her so bad then left us. Anyways a couple weeks ago i was having a heart to heart with my grandma (my real dads mom) and at the end of the convo she asked if i ever thought about my dad. I was in shock cuz she NEVER talked about him. I said everyday and i told her i wanted to meet him. A week goes by and she calls me and said he called (and he only calls once a year) and she never said anything to him before that so wen he called he had no idea that i talked to her about him. Anyways, she told him what i said and he started to cry...so now hes coming out to meet me!!! IM SO SCARED I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!.
Anyways so i called my grandma today to talk about moving up there for school, and we started talking about my dad again...very emotional convo i may add....and she asked me what i knew about him, and all i know of him is what my mom told me. So i told her what my mom told me and she said it was not true and it was all a huge lie, and that my mom told her that she lied about it and that she was sorry...but see, this is the first time me hearing this. I found out sooo much tonight that i had no idea happend.
Anyways, I need a place to live come september, and it needs to be out of victoria or i will continue to fall. So I am moving to naniamo if everything goes right...but the thing is, grandma wants me to move to alberta with my dad :S
I dont know what to do or how to do it. Im soooo stressed and scared. I know God is doing something big but i dont know what and i dont know what he wants me to do. dont tell me to pray about it cuz I am. But time is running out and i have no where to go. I have no final answers form anyone.....
Did I get myslef into this mess or is this part of His plan???????